Saturday, Mar. 02, 2002 -- 2:25 p.m.

My mom is so funny.

Last night, Craig called and she answered. I heard her shout at him "HI CRAIG! I MISSED YOU! HOW WAS YOUR TRIP! DID YOU HAVE FUN! I MISSED YOU!" I thought maybe she was kidding. Maybe there really isn't anyone on the phone. But he later told me that he laughed and that he was sucking my mom into his trap; that soon all the (insert my last name here)'s would be his.

Craig picked me up from my house last night because I was without vehicular transport. We went to his place and started fooling around as soon as we got there. I wasn't really in the mood but I quickly became in the mood. We had sex. I came really really hard. It was fucking fantastic. The best yet. no really, the BEST yet. Afterwards we laid there and cuddled and he tried to sleep but I kept on waking him up so we got up and he made me dinner, pasta and salad and bread and chocolate milk and orange juice. nummy.

We then watched tv for almost two hours. Sex and the city was funny. We watched some of The Chris Isaak Show which Craig likes a lot, we had seen the episode before and then for the rest of the time we were channel surfing. At 1:30am, he drove me home.

Craig has been talking about going away again. He wants to work for a few months to save up money and then he wants to take a few months off of work to travel.

This makes me very upset. I do not want him to leave. I could barely handle the two weeks he was in BC, how am I supposed to go on with him gone for SeVERAL MONTHS? I do not want him to leave. But if he does leave I will have to break up with him.

How am I going to find a new boyfriend? How am I going to find someone as great as Craig? Someone who so totally clicks with me? Someone who I can have FANTASTIC SEX with? I don't want to have to find someone new.

I have alienated my friends by so totally spending my time with Craig. Right now, I don't really care but when he's gone I'll need friends! And if they won't be my friends any more, how will I find new friends??? I haven't made a really good new friends in a long time. I really hope he doesn't leave me.

I went to work with my mom today. She is so awesome.

This regular of my mom's came by and she said that she had just gotten married. She was an older lady, maybe 45 and she had gone to some tropical island to get married. there were four people in total. I think that is wonderful. So simple and hassleless. Don't have to deal with wedding invitations and RSVP's and $50 a plate meals and finding the perfect dress and flowers and etc.

I would like to do that kind of small wedding but I think by my mom would not like that. She probably wants me to have a huge wedding.

I felt extremely sick today at work. I kept on having to sit down and finally my mom just sent me home. I think there's something wrong with me.

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