Wednesday, Jan. 30, 2002 -- 12:08 a.m.

Ack, this is what I was afriad of. Letting this diary go without updates for this long. I've been meaning to do it... I don't really know why I haven't... i've been online everyday... no excuses. I'm here now, that's what matters.

Ok, I can't start from when I left off, I don't have that good a memory...

Yesterday, I did not see Craig. I went to my classes and then I finished my assignment that's due tomorrow, in only three hours. I was pretty proud of myself for getting on top of that. I usually put things off until the night before but I wanted to spend tonight with Craig so I worked on the assignment yesterday.

I finished it and then I went to sleep at 10pm!! I was still tired for my 8am class in the morning.

TODAY, I went to my 8am class, and then I went to my 1pm class (WASTE OF TIME, note to self, this class is a WASTE OF TIME!), and then I came home and ate/puked until 7:30pm at which time I went to Craig's.

At Craig's I watched Buffy and some of Angel and then we went to bed at 10. I was giving him head as foreplay but then he said "I want to cum in your mouth" so I started bobbing like crazy (the faster he cums, the less my jaw'll hurt). Though, while I was doing it, my heart hurt. I got that throbbing in my chest that I love to hate so much. It was because I didn't want him to cum in my mouth. I wanted him to cum in me.

When he cums in my mouth, I miss out. He's basically spent when i've just started. I like to give him head until he cums when I have my period and we can't have sex, but when i'm not on the rag I want to have sex.

It would be ok if I knew that I could come some other way like oral or by hand but I know that usually I can't so I was definitely disapointed.

After he came, (and I swallowed), he started working on me with his hand. It felt good but I did not come and after a while I felt that I was not going to come and I had him stop.

I know I can give myself GREAT manual orgasm but it's not the same when Craig does it. When I masturbate, I can come in about two minutes, with Craig I can't do it at all (come by HAND). Well it did happen once a few months ago but that's not saying much.

So I was feeling pissy by this point. I really wanted to orgasm but Craig was spent so I tried to get a little sleep so we could try again but an hour later Craig still wanted to sleep so I slowly got dressed hoping that he would stop me but he didn't. He just said that he was really tired. He asked me if something was wrong because I looked "sad" but I said it was nothing and tried to smile.

I got dressed and went into his kitchen for some orange juice, a chocolate chip Dipps bar and a fruit bar thingy. Mainly I ate them because I felt that I needed to be compensated for my sexual favours.

As I was leaving Craig said that he was sorry that he was so tired and that he owed me one.

At least my assignment is done.

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