Friday, Jan. 18, 2002 -- 1:05 a.m.

I have a readership.

Wow. I got my first note today.

I will now admit, I have never gotten any feedback on this diary before. I figured there were some people passing by it at least but to actually have someone write to me! Exciting.

The reason I have an online diary is because I want to have a record of my history for when I’m older. The reason I’m motivated to update my diary is because I hope that people are reading it. Of course I would never tell anyone in my real life about this diary, it’s nice to know that some ONE at least is reading it.

Oh, about my notewritertome person. Go check her out, Fairytalefun. I’m currently reading her diary but it will be awhile before I’m current because I start at the beginning when I’m reading someone’s diary and she starts in 2000.

Craig found diaryland.

I sent him this link Doorway. Go check it out. It scared the shit out of me. I physically jumped. Look at the rear doorway for about 4min. So I sent the link to him and he jumped and then he saw “diaryland” in the url and he went to it. He knows I read online diaries (he thinks its weird) but he doesn’t know I have an online diary. I hope he didn’t search for my nickname, I use WWIDgirl for everything. I don’t know what I’d do if he found it. There’s so much stuff in here that I would never tell anyone I know in real life.

I did go to my one class today. It was from 6pm until 8pm. It’s actually supposed to be three hours long but the prof is a nice guy.

I went to Craig’s place after class, with the intention of killing time until I went out to a club. I was hoping that he would decide to come too but he didn’t.

We started fooling around and ended up having sex. I did not come. It was really good though, we tried a new position. We were both on our sides and he was kind of behind me… it was different but good.

I hope this not-coming is not becoming a trend. I haven’t come the last two times we’ve had sex. I am concerned.

I went to the Barking Frog after I left Craig’s at 10pm. I had to wait in line by myself. It was cold but I’ve been in longer lines so it wasn’t so bad. Inside there was Vic, Nick, George, Lily, Vito, Jim and Chris. I had an alright time but it was crazy busy and I get claustrophobic. I just felt really uncomfortable at times. I talked to Jim for a little while, he’s a nice guy. When I met him at new years, I thought he was an ass but he’s a-ok.

There were so many hot girls at the club. I was intimidated. I feel so inadequate. I’d hate to be single and trying to find a guy because how could I compete? What does Craig see in me?

After the club, I went to the 24 hour jumbo video (thank god for 24 hour anythings!) and I rented "Look who's talking" and "Caddyshack". I think it's sad when you so totally run out of things to rent that you start watching things for the fifth/sixth time.

There were these two Chinese girls on the bus today. They were sooo annoying and LOUD! I wanted to tell them to shut up but I didn’t want to be mean. Well I guess I kind of did want to be mean but I didn’t do it anyway.

I heard about this thing where sometimes when you have a preconceived notion you only see things that reinforce your preconceived notion. For example; I have the preconceived notion that Chinese people are loud and cheap. Well maybe I mainly notice the loud and cheap Chinese people although there are quite a few of them that are quiet and generous, I just don’t notice them…. It’s an idea anyway.

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