2002-01-06 -- 11:52 p.m.

I really don't feel much like writing now but if I don't do it now it'll take me forever to get to it.

I did nothing all day after going to church. Nothing. I ate, and i puked and basically that is worse than nothing.

Craig called me at 4pm, an hour afer he got home he said, usually he calls me as soon as he gets home (????). I told him that I had agreed to go to Shiki with George and Lily, and although he was reluctant, Craig said he'd come.

At 7pm, George finally calls me to say that we are still on for dinner but when I call Craig he says he feels to sick to go (he later tells his cousin Alan on the phone that he didn't feel like going). So now I'm kind of mad. I HATE when I look forward to something and then someone backs out. I HATE that. My mom used to do that all the time, she used to promise something and then she wouldn't keep her promise. I HATE that. I'd rather they say no in the first place, not an hour before we're suppose to go.

I used to get my mom to sign "contracts" if she made a promise because I was so used to her breaking her promises.

I talked on the phone with him for a little while but I was obviously not happy. He said to come by after dinner and say "hi", I merely answered by saying "hi" on the phone, I wanted to go over but I was mad at him.

And then my mom got a call so I had to let him go but he said to call him later.

Right after my mom's call, I called Craig back and said " i have to get out of this house, is it ok if I come over?" and he said ok.

I went over, still mad but I wanted to see him, and we had dinner. He heated up pork roast and made some toast.Then I sat and watched tv while Craig did some stuff around his place. I wanted to have sex before 10pm because my fucking mom wanted me home before 10 but 10 o'clock rolled around and still no sign of any action so I reluctantly got ready to leave. At about 10:30 we started to fool around, i took off my coat and we had went to his room to have sex. It was fantastic. I came. We actually came at the same time.

Afterwards,we just laid and tickled each other and talked for a bit, and then I had to go home because it was 11:20ish and I was late, fucking mom. I hugged him for a long time before I left because he's going on a business trip to michigan and will be gone from monday until wednesday. He said he'd miss me.

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